mom1wife

 It has been 2 weeks since I started my weight loss plan. I have been trying to avoid weighing myself everyday. But I will not lie it has been very hard. I am kind of at a road block at the moment. You see a friend of mine had a baby only a month after me. So we are trying to lose our baby weight together. Only for some reason she seems to be doing it faster than me. And she isn’t even trying as hard as I am. I have been going to a group exercise class for the past 2 weeks, 3 days a week and each class is an hour. Then I have been either walking or doing Pilates the other 2 days of the week and taking the weekend to give my body a break and rest. I have been watching what I eat. No ice-cream, cookies, the only thing I indulge in once in awhile is graham crackers with a little peanut butter. And yet somehow she has lost more weight than me, and fits into a smaller jean size to top it off. We are pretty close in height. She also has a little extra weight in the mommy milk region, and I did not seem to add any size to my bust so to speak during breastfeeding, which should have added a few more pounds to her scale. It is like everyone around me can lose weight except me. It is so frustrating. I went shopping this weekend to see if I could fit into the size of jeans I would like to be, with no luck. I just decided to buy the bigger size and cut the damn tag off so nobody but me knew what size they were. I don’t even know why I am trying so hard to lose weight anyway. It is not like my husband even notices if I would. Strangers who ask me how old my daughter is always give me a courteous, oh you look great. But the one person who I need to hear that from the most doesn’t.

 My first step in losing weight is to keep track of my weight on a calendar. My plan is to weigh myself first thing in the morning and right before I go to bed. I am hoping this will help me get an idea of how much I am gaining on a daily basis or if I am actually losing any weight. At the end of the week I will look at my calendar and determine if I lost or gained weight that week. Then depending on how I did I can change my diet and workout routine to help achieve the weight loss goal I have given myself of 15 pounds. I am going home for Thanksgiving. It is the first time I will see my best friends from back home and my in-laws. It is also the first time my husband’s sister will see my daughter. She is 6 months already. I really want to fit into my pre pregnancy jeans, without having to suck in my belly all day long. I have been stuck at the same weight for over a month now and I have decided that this is it. I have to get on a set schedule with working out and watching what I eat if I plan on losing that kind of weight in a month. This means no more late night cravings for ice cream. Instead I am replacing any sweet craving, which I mainly get at night, with a glass of milk. Instead of sitting on the couch watching TV, if none of my shows are on, I am going to be working on the computer or scrapbooking, or doing sit-ups.

 So 6 months ago I had a baby. Congratulations to me. But the thing that sucks is that losing that baby weight is not as easy as I was hoping it was going to be. At first I lost like 10 pounds. Obviously because the 7 pound baby that was in my belly was no longer there. And unfortunately I gained a little bit more than I had wanted to during my pregnancy. It really wasn’t my fault. My husband left for Iraq when I was about 10 weeks pregnant. And he didn’t get home until 9 days after my daughter was born. So during pretty much my entire pregnancy I was left alone and solely in charge of all of my food preparations. Which for any pregnant woman out there knows is a dangerous situation. You get so many cravings while you’re pregnant. Most of them are not healthy. For me McDonalds was my weakness for a few months. And going through the drive through and spending five or six bucks on dinner was easier and faster than cooking an entire meal for myself. I did try, don’t get me wrong, to cook. But most of the time I would finish cooking and not feel like eating what I made or lose interest because it took so long to cook. Long story short I ate too much fast food, gained more weight than I wanted and now am paying for it when it comes to losing that weight. Plus have a baby doesn’t make getting up and going to the gym whenever I want any easier. I wish I was rich enough to hire a personal trainer and personal chef to be there for me every day until I can lose the weight I want and get back into shape.